A Typical Lousy Day

The difference between just having a bad day and being depressed is so bizarre.

I’m starting to adjust to my new normal. I never realized that it’s perfectly fine to be a grumpy ass bitch sometimes without feeling like I’m also absolutely doomed.

Today started out rather well even though I had a rough night, waking up every couple of hours. (I am either a heavy sleeper or a light sleeper, there is no in-between.)

I woke up jazzed to start my day. I got up, let the dogs out, went to the bathroom, fed the cat and gave him his insulin shot. I let the dogs back in and fed them their chow.

The whole crew.

I made myself a lovely cup of coffee, with French vanilla creamer, my favorite.

Then I read the news.

Yeah, the world has gone to shit and much of what’s going on is quite scary. I know that there isn’t all that much I can do about things but it still brings me down. It’s sort of hard not to feel uneasy unless you seriously don’t give a damn, which I’m just unable to do.

I got dressed to go to my TMS therapy. I have 8 more to go. I’m really going to miss the young lady technician that gives me my treatments, so I’m bummed out about that. I was supposed to go visit with my friends but that got canceled.

I figured, well, there are so many things that I want or need to do! I felt really motivated to make it a productive day.

Until I didn’t.

Who in the hell wears lipstick to take a nap?

I’ve been really tuckered out lately. With much of my mental health issues slowly fading over the last few weeks, I’ve almost forgotten that I still have fibromyalgia.

And that fucker sucker ain’t going anywhere.

I made jello!

But I’m not depressed, overly anxious, or thinking icky thoughts.

It’s just been a typical lousy day.

I fucking love it.


  1. I don’t know whether to cheer or post an unhappy face. LOL Cheers the treatment is working but unhappy face for being grumpy. Huh, I was grumpy the other day. I didn’t even like being around myself! hahah…. it’s nice you are experiencing regular old grumpy days. 🙂

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    • Yeah, I got on my own damn nerves today! LOL 🙂
      It’s awesome, Jackie. I’m really glad that I did this and proud that I’ve stuck with it.


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