Put One Foot in Front of the Other

So far this week, I’ve managed to get out of the house twice. Yesterday, I spent the afternoon with my daughter. We dropped her car off at the dealership to get an oil change. Then, in my car, we went to a thrift store, lunch (at a gas station that makes the best subs) and a couple of other stores. We didn’t purchase much of anything, just window shopping like we used to do back when she was little.

I’ve showered, washed my hair in the sink twice, cleaned the kitchen daily, cooked dinner almost every night. I’ve paid some bills, de-cluttered the house, and have written something here on the blog close to every day. I think, I can’t remember.

It’s Thursday, right?

Most of the stuff I’ve done was accomplished by giving myself a mighty push from deep within. Come on, Mer, you got this. Put one foot in front of the other and all of that.

I also snoozed most of my grief groups and pages on Facebook. I don’t need constant reminders that my mom died. I figure that perhaps seeing that stuff every day could be doing more harm than good.

What I really need to do is some yard work. Ugh. It’s been so muggy and rainy that I’ve been putting it off. But today I have no real excuse other than I just don’t wanna.

I get allergic smelling grass clippings…

But it won’t get done by just sitting here, staring at my backyard jungle and feeling this albatross on my back, damn it.

A huge shout out for pain medication, for without it I’d be totally screwed.

Does it seem like there’s always something that needs done or is it just me?

Nah, it’s not just me. Such is life, as my mom used to say.

4 comments

  1. There always seems to be something that needs to be done! I agree with you 100%. Sometimes it comes in batches….I need to do this thing but I can’t do it without doing this, this and that first! Ugh. Home ownership you gotta love it. LOL I’ve been pushing myself to do things too. My excuse? Just plain hot and lazy. hahahaha…..

    Might have been a good idea to put a hold on things that make you sad. You know you’re grieving, you’ll always grieve but sometimes I think these ‘groups’ are not the right way to go. But, that’s just me. I’m not much of a ‘joiner’. You stay true to you.

    Like

    • Most everything comes in batches! I did mow the backyard. Took me almost an hour. But, I did it.
      I’m not much of a joiner either. I’ve just been feeling lonely lately. Not many female friends are willing to hang out. I might join a woman’s bowling league. As for trying to keep away from things that make me sad…seems an impossible task.

      Liked by 1 person

      • So what you need to do to help. Join things, do things, whatever. I’m of the generation that keeps things to myself. Sometimes I’m not good at that. Even I get lonely sometimes, which is so unusual for me but for us both it’s been a hard couple of years so we maybe need new ways to cope. ❤

        Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s