Memories

Here it is, only 21 days away from Christmas. I dealt with Thanksgiving better than I thought I would. I figured that I’d be able to deal with Christmas about the same; not feeling so merry and bright, but perhaps the pain of grief for my mother wouldn’t be as heavy as it was last year.

I have no desire to decorate or put up our tree. I haven’t even bought one single gift yet. I just want to fast forward through it, all over again.

I saw this song. I love music. It helps me survive.

The year 2020 has been one fucking shitshow of a year and so…as the dude from Maroon 5 says…

There’s a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain
When I believed in forever, and everything would stay the same
Now my heart feel like December when somebody say your name
‘Cause I can’t reach out to call you, but I know I will one day, yeah

I wish that you were still here, mom. Will I always feel slightly dead inside?

Memories by Maroon 5 2019

Here’s to the ones that we got
Cheers to the wish you were here but you’re not
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we’ve been through
Toast to the ones here today
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

There’s a time that I remember
When I did not know no pain
When I believed in forever
And everything would stay the same
Now my heart feel like December
When somebody say your name
‘Cause I can’t reach out to call you
But I know I will one day, yeah

Everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody hurts someday, ay ay
But everything gon’ be alright
Go on raise a glass and say, ay

Here’s to the ones that we got
Cheers to the wish you were here but you’re not
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we’ve been through
Toast to the ones here today
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

There’s a time that I remember
When I never felt so lost
When I felt all of the hatred
Was too powerful to stop (ooh, yeah)
Now my heart feel like an ember
And it’s lighting up the dark
I’ll carry these torches for ya
That you know I’ll never drop, yeah

Everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody hurts someday, ay ay
But everything gon’ be alright
Go on raise a glass and say, ay

Here’s to the ones that we got (oh, oh)
Cheers to the wish you were here but you’re not
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we’ve been through (no, no)
Toast to the ones here today (ay)
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories (ay)
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo (ooh, yeah)
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

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